One day removed from the mediation and most of the hurt is gone. I've decided that I'm not going to make the kids make the choice. Putting them in the middle is too hard. 50/50 is what it should be. If she can't agree then we are off to the courts. That is assuming her lawyer will respond.
I had an IC session last night and it went well. We discussed lots of topics and towards the end she commented on how my emotional reservoirs are beginning to fill. She wanted to know why. I'm sure a good portion of that is my new lady friend. Great to have someone to talk to, laugh with, and just hang. She's been through much of the same so knows what I'm going through. She's full of great advice and support. Plus she is tremendously fun.
My IC wants to move to every 2 weeks which I think is a great step. My next session will be on what was supposed to be my 20th anniversary. I think that will be a tough day but I've weathered holidays, birthdays, and sure I will have some issues but will recover quickly.