I HAVEN'T POSTED ANYTHING FOR A WHILE BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN AWAY. I WENT TO THE BAHAMAS WITH JUST SOME GIRLFRIENDS FOR 5 DAYS. HAD A BLAST AND DIDN'T WANT TO COME HOME. I DID REALIZE THAT I AM MORE MYSELF THE GIRL THAT EVERYONE LOVES WHEN I AM NOT WITH MY SPOUSE.
GOT HOME FROM THE BAHAMAS AND TOOK A FAMILY VACATION UPSTATE NEW YORK. WE DO THIS EVERY YEAR AND I THOUGHT I SHOULD GO THIS YEAR CAUSE IT MAY BE MY LAST TIME UP THERE. AGAIN I HAD A GOOD TIME BUT THAT GOOD TIME WAS WITH MY KIDS MY BROTHER AND HIS FAMILY(THEY ALWAYS COME WITH US)BUT I REALLY DIDN'T ENJOY MY TIME WITH MY SPOUSE. AS A MATTER OF FACT BEING WITH HIM 24 HOURS A DAY 7 DAYS A WEEK WAS DRIVING ME EVEN MORE NUTS THAN USUAL. I WILL GIVE HIM ALITTLE CREDIT THOUGH INSIDE OF FIGHTING WITH ME EVERY DAY WE ONLY FOUGHT TWICE THAT IS A RECOD FOR HIM. YIPPEE!!! BUT THEN WE HAD A FIGHT LAST NIGHT.......HE WANTED TO BE INTIMATE AND I DIDN'T HE GOT REALLY PISSED CAUSE WE HAVEN'T IN 6 MONTHS!!! I DON'T FEEL CONNECTED TO HIM TO BE SEXUAL ACTIVE WITH HIM. I REALLY NEED TO JUST GET OUT BUT I DON'T KNOW IF I'M READY YET. HOW DO I KNOW WHEN THE HELL I'M READY???? AND WHY THE HELL DO MEN HAVE TO BASE EVERYTHING THEY DO SAY AND FEEL WITH THEIR PANTS????
ANY HELP WOULD BE GREAT.
HOPE EVERYONE OUT THERE IS DOING BETTER THAN ME.
DELI