I'm married now a year and my husband is never there.sometimes he could be away for 2 weeks not calling or asking about me then he will turn up once or twice and it could go on agan to a month just call and say he will come and he never does.

My friends have seen him out clubbing and his been in the area where i live but never come and see me. its been continuing since we got married. 2 weeks ago he was suppose to come and pick me up from work we spoke at 5pm and he promised will come to pick me up at 10:30 from work.

He never come. I waited and waited. everytime i called him he hangs up and i tried again it will ring.

When i got home i called his friend. his friend said he had something with a nother friend and he went out. so I told him to call him and tell him to call me.

he didnt so at 12am i called he picked up i was ragging and so angry wasnt sure what to say i said so many mean things to him he was just so called.

The next day he called making me feel that it was all my fault i swore like ive never swore before. I felt tired and angry but didnt mean to be that bad. I was just tired!

I ended it and im home all alone each day trying to recover and see it from a strangers eyes.

Im scared!!!

Is it me or was i not patient enough or was i jut not good enough?

Im getting myself back on a dating scene as im not ready to stay home and cry every night for my mistakes im really angry!!
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Sometimes i used to think he never wanted me to move to the city where he was because he was cheating.

Is he? than why would he act like this?

Does any one know what i mean and feel.. Or its just me who accepted this this?

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