3 kids, stay at home, NO DATES with my husband, all he likes to do is drink and smoke weed. I smoke as well but Im burned out. We've quit smoking about 5 to 6 times and eventually everything goes back to the way it is now. I try to talk to him but I cant because he shuts down and determines when its time to talk and when its time to shut up. I stopped bothering him with my issues in our marriage and I met a guy, I like him but not enough to be with him. He makes me smile but I know that in the back of my mind Im to the point where I want to get my own apartment and raise my kids by my self. I went to college but did not complete it because I had a sickly baby and now I want to go back but he doesn't want me to. My kids NEVER go to daycare so I LITERALLY stay home with them months on end. Im tired and drained and my body is wore down. Im 22 just in case youre wondering (we were together in HS!) and I already have signs of arthritis in my knee. I cook everyday and handle chores and discipline all by myself. Ive had to mow grass numerous of times because we keep getting citations. I could keep going but why I know Im tired and I really want out. Ill admit that I wasnt ready and we primarily got married because of my pregnancy. I found this out recently that his family played a major role in deciding this because they dont believe in having kids outside of wed lock. I got married because I didnt want to have two children and not be married so to save face I got married. Dont get me wrong I love him but I want to feel like a woman and not a home sitter and not just someone to make him feel good sexually. Im sad and miserable and I really need someone anyone to talk to. I dont know how to leave. I have no money and no job and no credit and no college no friends. Please respond and give opinions. Ive tried counseling but he did not want to "TELL OUR BUSINESS" and when we did go he lied and was being a whole diffrent person. Thanks for reading