I'm sorry that you're in such a situation. If your husband do return back home, do you think that you can live with the knowledge that he had been unfaithful and is coming back from " playing house" with her? I don't mean to sound bitter or anything because I am currently dealing with a situation somewhat similar to yours. He didn't live with her,nevertheless, he had an affair and it broke my heart and along with my broken heart, my trust and confidence for my unhusband was shattered. I'm not able to forgive yet, I'm working on that. The one thing I do know is that unless I'm able to get past the hurt, no matter what he tells me, there is no way I can live with him ever again. I do love him but, is it enough to be able to forgive and start all over again. The one thing I can tell you is that you need to go and get counseling for yourself at the very least and maybe consider marriage counseling for both you and your husband. I know how much you'd like for him to come back, I feel the same way with my unhusband but I do know that it's all too soon and the wound is too fresh. Everyone has told me not to say anything to my unhusband about coming back home. They also told me to not let him see me fall apart. You know they were right! The fact that he doesn't get the satisfaction of knowing my real feelings is good enough for me. It definitely helps my self-esteem to know that he isn't allowed the privilege of knowing my innermost thoughts. I have also realized that not having your expectations known to anyone but yourself can actually help you get over the disappointment whenthey are not met. Every night I feel like picking up the phone just to hear his voice,but I don't allow myself to. Instead I focus my energy on something else. The next day I feel better knowing I was in control of myself and he didn't get to know how much i was hurting. I pray that God sustains you through time like these. God Bless.