If you haven't had a chance to read any of my post yet, then allow me to let you know what's going on. I have been separated for almost 3 months now. My wife threw me out of our apartment because I had been talking to an ex-girlfriend and hiding it from her. I know it was stupid, and I should have been open about it because there wasn't anything going on between us that was inappropriate. Unfortunately, I didn't have a chance to prove that before I found myself living with my brother. Well, immediately after our separation, I found out she was seeing another man, within the same week we split. All, I can say is that I found out that my situation was an excuse for her to bring her new boyfriend in the picture she had been talking to while we were still living together. I also found out a lot more once everyone knew we were separated and felt that it was now time to tell me other horror stories I hadn't heard yet. Needless to say, I tried to turn a promiscuous woman into a house wife and failed misserably. Now 3 months removed, I still find myself wanting to be with her, despite the fact that she was probably the worst mistake I've made in my life when it has come to relationships. I keep trying to make myself relive all of the bad times we had, which definately outweigh the good times, but still I'm stuck on wanting her back. She destroyed my financial situation, made me take care of her kid while she was out getting drunk (by the way she is an alcoholic), and coming home at 4-5 in the morning trashed. She's 27 with a 6 year old and acts like she is 18 again. When I first met her, she was a manager at a mortgage company. She lost her job and then became a waitress at a pool hall and that's when everything went down hill. She has a bachelor's in business, but never put any effort into finding a real job. I made a pro and con list, and only had 8 things to come up with nice to say about her and over 70 negative things that she brought to the table. What is wrong with me? Does anyone know any techniques to get this poison out of my system? Thanks.