on line affair

I am currently in an online affair. I was friends on line with him for a while when one day he just knew there was something wrong with my life and my marriage. And of course i opened up to him and he opened up to me. He picked me up and saved me from a very dark place i was. We would i m constantly and then he asked for my cell phone number. This was back in october. We have been talking on phone, texting on phone still emailing and im'ing. He has told me several times he loves me and that fate brought us together. He makes up the most beautiful poems to send me. He has stolen my heart. then he made plans to fly here and meet me. I knew once i met him that my marriage would be over, that i could never go back home. He said he would take me back with him. Well as it turns out he never flew here, seems my husband emailed his wife and told her all about it. She even called me and told me to have him because their marriage was over and it was for a long time. All these feelings for him were so real. They still are. I know i hurt my husband everyday by still talking to this guy but i can't stop. And i know even now if he came here i would probably go and meet him. I would be something i had to do. He was my savior and my confidant. I have given so much of myself to this guy. Yes we even had text sex and cyber sex. Why would i still meet him?? i still love my husband but why am i willing to give it all up for this fantasy that i want to be real so bad?