Soooo...now I find out he is moving out next weekend.  What is going on with him still being here?  Why is it taking him so long?  Others think he is buying time and he wants to see what I am doing.  Like today, I asked him if he could watch our son, and he said he had plans.  Okay no problem, BUT he shows up at the house around 6? And I go out with my friend and my son.  I come back around 8 and he is still there?  So I jumped in my car and went over my friends house with my son.  I come home around 10 something he is still here?  So I go downstairs and tell him I am going to my other friends house down the street with my son, now this whole time I think he is going out, so I take my son AGAIN, Well I get home around 1 and he never left!! I noticed that he had left to go get himself some food and came right back??? And now he is asleep still fully clothed in the basement!!! Really?  Oh man...what is really goin on?  My friends tell me he packed up to make it seem like he is leaving but he is not...what ever he needs to get out.  I guess he wants me to blow up, but nah I am not going to let him see that ONE BIT... I get to vent here...hahaha

On another note I found out from my friends hubby that he had bumped into him this past week and he looked horrible.  Oh well sucks to be him.  And he told me that he told him that he is going to be on a bowling league now and that he leaves work and bowls up to 2 hours during his lunch break??? hmmm really?  OH well let him enjoy this because once we go to court he will have to save his pennies...tee hee. Goodness this man is really going to get what is coming to him. I just know for one I am not the one with issues.  He needs to find himself, and when he does and wants to get back with me...no way.  I plan to move on with my life and with the kids.  I just got offered to work more hours in the evening, one it's good, two it sucks because that means he will be coming to the house to watch the kids 4 times a week.  So yeah going to make more money, BUT he will still be here. 

Also I hear him puking a lot.  Could it be he has an ulcer from all the stress?  We barely talk anymore since what happened on Sunday.  Then again why should I care right?  He is the one who is stepping out of this marriage.  He is the one who gave up on us.  I never gave up I wanted to keep working on it no matter what, but he was fed up.  I guess fed up for the fact that he couldn't have his way anymore.  That marriage is 50/50.  Shish it took him 2 years to open a joint account with me and when we finally got it he was bitching that I was the one spending the money, when here I was paying the bills, buying food, and gettin gas for my car AND he was giving himself an allowance of 200 hundred dollars every pay period.

Now I was babysitting and all and trying to save what little I could, but he was spending his where I was trying to save mine.  But that doesn't matter any longer.  What matters now is that I am moving on with my life and doing what is best for me and the kids and be positive and strong.  I am survivor.  Before he came into my life it was me and daughter, now its going be and my daughter with our son.  So yeah I can do this, it's hard though, but I do know that I am not the only one going through this.  I know at times its going to get bumpy,  I just have to stay focused and patient.

Well yesterday has gone, today will become the past and as for tomorrow who knows.

Good Night everybody