Hi Christina,
How is everything going? i hope that you are doing alright. I haven't been on this site for a while but I thought I would drop in to see how you're doing.  If you need to chat don't hesitate or just drop me an email. I'll get back to you as fast as I can.  I'll be praying for you. God Bless.

Christina, you might have a more serious problem-please look at this site:

www.ischeatingamentaldisorder.com,

try to be honest with yourself-you might get help and to be happy again. Gte your husband to look at this as well-he night agree with this.
I also think that you need to learn how to communicate with each other more openly and how make this communication safe, meaning to be acceptive and supportive of each other.

Christina -- I admire your courage and strength to tell you husband the truth.  I wish I had the same courage.  Consider that you've told him something that he probably already knew to be true.  And now you can both deal with reality instead of hiding behind a cloud of fiction.  I am sure it hurts, the truth often does.  But I envy you for having the ton of bricks of a secret lifted off of you.

You made a hard gut wrenching choice and even though you know it's the right thing, it is going to hurt.

Divorce is hard. Regardless of whether it's a mutual choice, or you are leaver, or the leavee.

You were with this person for a long time. It is a grieving process. There are stages to it. Losing that person. That connection, or even the comfort level you shared.

You will have your good days and bad days.

And I've been grieving for the loss of my marriage for over a year and I can tell you eventually the good days will outnumber bad ones.

Chin up and welcome. Take some time to look around, I recently found this place, and I can't tell you how much it's helped me.

Christina,
i know exactly how you feel. I am in a situation where i don't feel love for my spouse and i am mentally withdrawn as well as physically with him and I don't even like to be around him. I have come to a point where i'd rather not be around him anymore. I just want to leave but i have christian beliefs and I feel it is wrong to leave and i should look to the higher power for answers. I know he may not answer our prayers our needs but he will in his time.  Life is not about what we want. We must live for God.  I am going through a trial in my marriage. Girl, I just want to runaway and leave but I know as a christian I will have to answer to God and I will pay for my consequences.  I have been divorced once before and I wasn't a christian at the time so leaving my first spouse i didn't feel as convicted to stay in the marriage but now i am married a 2nd time and as a christian  I am really thinking about it twice before i make a decision to step in the dark.  I know that there will definitely broken hearts. I cried for more than a year because of the 1st divorce, maybe more but I felt like I had to ask God for forgiveness and I did. It's a healing process that will take not 1 week or 2 months, it sometimes takes a few  years to mend a broken heart even if you don't feel that love right now you did.  Love is not a feeling, it isn't an emotion and it isn't physical attraction. Love is action, committment, long suffering and Persistence.  If your love is gone, it can come back if you both work on it. I know it might be hard but god didn't say that marriage was going to be easy.