I got married 12 years ago. My husband and I were "just friends" at one time. See I was going out with a guy I adored, and my current husband and him were very close friends, long story short, my boyfriend cheated on me, and I kinda went running off with his best friend, who yes is now my husband of 12 years. Needless to say my husband and my ex are NOT friends anymore, pretty crappy thing my husband did to his best friend when i start really thinking about it..... and Yes my husband and i  have a small child etc who didn't come till after marriage ... Things were going great till about a year ago, when guess what I ran into the EX-boyfriend, who keep in mind I have thought about endless nights, there was always a deep passion between myself and my ex, but with my husband there is loyality and honor and trust, but not really a lot of attratction at least on my end. So you guessed it I ended up meeting up with my ex, and well kinda having a relationship, not real sexual more of a relationship which is even worse. Now my ex wants me to make a decision, I either leave my husband and go with him or he is gone, I love them both so much, I wish I could mush them together. I don't want my child to grow up without her dad in the home like I did, but I don't look at my husband and desire him, will this change, what if i end it with my ex and he tells my husband, what should i do, would my life be better if i left my husband and went with my ex who for some reason i feel maybe the right person all this time>? financially i have no idea how i would make it unless i jumped into a relationship with my ex ,,, oh god this is so so horrible. i really truly don't know what to do.... my gut tells me to stay with my husband, however my heart tells me to go with my ex.