Divorcing...and caught dating

I asked my H for a divorce back in November-he was stunned. I has been telling him for years even that I was unhappy. We were miserable together and were rarely intimate. We have a three year old daughter and I am asking for primary custody. I am moving out to a new house in 2 weeks...and H and I are scheduled to go to mediation next week (we initally agreed to do this divorce 'amicably')

As luck would have it-I ran in to a former classmate from 20 years ago...and we struck up a friendship (he is divorced).

Bottom line-we got involved in a relationship. I didn't expect this, the timing is all wrong....but it just works.

Anyway-I had told 2 girlfriends about the divorce and that I had reconnect with a friend and I was starting to feel happy and whole again.

I went out with my so called friends the other night and just yesterday-one of them called H and told him EVERYTHING I had said to her. H then located my iPod touch and scrolled through all my e-mails and sure enough-there are ones between me and my male friend.

So now it's out there in the open. My H is obviously very hurt, I don't blame him-I can imagine I would be the very same way. He left last night to go on a vacation with a buddy of his for a few days...and we talked a bit before he left-but his anger was so great and he threatened me with taking our daughter away from me and ruining my life.

I have called an attorney and am waiting for a call back. I don't think I will lose my daughter-but I am worried about the financial ramifications from this.

I live in PA.....

I don't kn ow if I am looking for advie, similar stories or what....I feel foolish and am angry for letting my guard down.