scared - I really think you need to consider ending this collaborative divorce choice - you aren't getting anywhere except down. He's walking all over you...
Next time you see the cell phone on the floor don't ASK him to see it - just take the damn thing and look at it - once you find out it is from her put it in the toilet and tell him where he can find it. stop being a doormat he wipes his feet on. Sometimes words like "in the spirit of collaberation" need to change to "kiss my ass"...
Oh I know exactly where you're at. What helped me really understand the distance of it all was when I was told by many that it was due to the fact that one party has had considerably more time to "move on" because of their affair. The emotional distance the cheating spouse has acquired allows them to move ahead with their life and make decisions that have nothing to do with the marriage. Essentially they checked out of the marriage long before you even knew the end was near.
So what you cannot make sense of is the fact that he is now operating from a very one sided perspective. He has moved on and is no longer married so he feels little obligation to act considerate or with respect because he feels no tie to your marriage or you as a couple. He is able to spend freely, accept cell phone gifts (and anything else you may not know about) and not feel compelled to even lie well since he doesn't feel it warrants the effort.
Trust me, once the financial aspect of the divorce is settled and you can then begin to design your own life and know the answers to things like where you will live, how much you will have to live on, etc. Having these answers will give you a nice distance from the raw emotions and connection to your marriage.
A good counselor and a top attorney will get you to the end in one piece. Hang in there.
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