Anyone else feeling miserable and lonely and frustrated?

That is exactly what my stbx told me when I asked if he missed anything from our marriage yet!!!...Now thats classic.  You described the wonderous and magical christmas day!!...Just to be with the kids hearing laughter and happiness thats a great christmas.  I don't like the feeling of hate for him (my stbx) anymore, it gives him attention he doesnt deserve.  But he doesnt think he did anything wrong in order for me to say "I want a divorce"...and he has really gotten on with his life pretty well, and shows no mourning or loss for his 2nd marriage falling apart!....Eventually we will find peace.  Its funny but in a sad way how at one point you KNEW what he was feeling with out him having to show it, and now its like this big head game they like to play of "she doesnt know me" kind of thing.  I completely forgot where I was going here...lol......Best wishes!!!

Thanks everyone for you kind words! I'm feeling more positive today, could be that I slept in this morning - and I didn't have to clean up any dog barf this morning!!

I'm sorry you are going thru this!  I know from experience it will get better.  I felt like this last yr at this time becuz my ex (then hubby) just told me before our anniversary and the holidays that he wanted a divorce and didn't love me anymore - found out he was cheating and he didn't have any remorse over our marriage being over.  I was so full of hate and anger for him it wasn't even funny.  I dreaded the holidays last year and didn't even enjoy them at all even with my kids, I just went thru the motions of it all and I think my boys did to last yr.  This year was better let me tell ya.  I didn't even miss him at all and of course he picked the boys up on Tuesday for one hr to spend with them and brought the bitch and her daughter along, he was supposed to get them Christmas Eve - but oh well life goes on.  But I just didn't feel the hate this yr like I did last yr.  I felt anger towards him but that was due to him promising my boys a certain gift and not following thru and the fact that he didn't spend that much time with them and hasn't seen them in over 2 weeks either.  But I can't control what he does or says just like you can't control him either.  He says things to you like this becuz of guilt and I went thru the same thing with my ex, the things he would say to me - it was out of guilt pure and simple!!  I'm so sorry you are going thru this but trust me it will get better.  The holidays were easier for me to deal with this year than last yr so it will get better with time!!  Take care.

Hey - I felt the same way today.. ..didn't have my girls at all and missed them so very much.  I don't think that I've ever felt more alone.  I know that we're all hurting here, but that things will definitely be better for everyone in 2009.  Talking on here is probably one of the healthier things to do - and although it's been difficult for me, I try to get on here every once in a while when I'm not feeling well...   You will get better...

Oh, Sunflower, sweetie!!!!!!!  Hugs to you!

I know my ex will tell you he didn't see me leaving him coming.  But, I don't think he understands exactly what he did to me over the years.  I can so empathize with you!  I pray that this next year will be so much better for you!

im so sorry sunflower, i wish you had your kids right now too. here is a giant  (((((HUG))))) from me to you. i know how you feel. i was like that last night. email me if you need to vent ok

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