Why do I still want to snoop?

I think I snoop to know what he is doing,, not that it helps when I find out, except to make me more upset.  I know it is unhealthy, not good, but it is something that I struggle not to do. 

The more I think about it, the more unhealthy I think snooping is. It means that we're comparing our lives with that of our stbx, when we should be doing our own thing with no distractions.

Man.  While I never had the option of checking (because if I did, I definitely would have..lol), I had a major problem checking her myspace page.  It became such an honest to goodness addiction for me.  I would always check it with the hope I'd find something that showed she was hurting, regretful, something that signaled to me she was still partially the woman I used to love.  Unfortunately, I have yet to find anything close to that, but just the opposite.  She's been all smiles, declared herself single 2 days after we decided to divorce and is currently dating someone else (she's 28 and he's 19....yeah, that was a sobering find..lol)
    So knowing that everytime I've snooped on her it's led to nothing but confusion, anger, and heartache, I've promised myself I'd abstain from looking at her pages.  I've been a few weeks clean, so I need pat myself on the back, as temptation is always around the corner, especially with the final hearing for our divorce just around the corner.  IMO 9 times out of 10, you aren't going to find anything you didn't already know, and the stuff you will find out, isn't going to make you feel any better.  Feeling better ultimately comes only from you.  I wish you the best.

I think I wanted to do it to assure myself that he was as bad as I thought he was. It's so difficult to let go, too, it seems somehow natural...but only for the first little while!