going back to court next week

I went to court for the first time last week for Pende Lite on custody and money. What a strange feeling. I took some Lexapro and Lorazapam. That was the best thing I could have done. My STBX brought his PREGNANT mistress with him!!! Who does that?!?! We've only been separated a few months after having been together and inseperable for 13 years. OUR baby is only 17 months old. Thank GOD for the drugs. I had NO FEELINGS. It didn't bother me one bit. I had no emotion the whole day. So from now on I'll make sure I drug myself up before any court dates and interaction with the SOB. Showing no emotion is better than not being able to control my reaction. I wouldn't want to show him anger or dispair.

Thanks for asking the question, everyone's advice was so good.  I am not looking forward to my next meeting with the stbx.  Thank you for asking and thanks all that replied.

The best thing to do would be to be silent unless you are asked a question, answer the question calmly, stand and sit straight, and look good!  Wear something that you feel really good in!  I know that sounds very minuscule to the whole situation, but I know from experience when I look good I feel good!

This is what I am going to tell myself when my days in court arise! Stay strong since you are!

I am probably going to pop a few adivan the night before and then again 2 hours before the trial. Always calm cool and collective after that. I am determined to never see me cry again. He doesn't deserve to see my tears.

Be honest to the court when ask a question, try not to say anything to your ex when in front of the judge or during cross examination. Always let your attorney be the hard ass in front of the judge, you just be sweet and silent unless ask a question...and you will come out of this just fine.

thanks freedom,
i thank you for all your wonderful comments. i need encouragement especially now. i will leave it up to my attorney.