A mother's influence

   As I stated in my blog yesterday, I have had plans to move in with a friend who lives in the city an hour away from here. I was going to quit my job and move there in January and just start out all over again. Then, my mother got her claws into me. She told me how terribly worried she is about me quitting my job (which won't support me if I'm on my own anyway) and having to find another in this crappy economy. She suggested that I stay where I am, keep my job, and just make my husband deal with my living in our home until I can find something more permanent for myself. I started to waffle, for she is great at bringing out the worst possible outcome of a situation.

   So, the rest of the day I started wondering if she was right. Was I crazy to quit a job, no matter how much it paid just to have one? Should I really stay at home until I find a better job and a place of my own? I absolutely cannot continue to live with my husband longer than a couple of more months. Our living situation is pretty bad and it's destructive for both of us. So where do I go? Move in with my friend (I'm sure she wouldn't just kick me out if I didn't find a job in a certain amount of time, as long as i was trying my best) and risk not having a job for a while? Do I find a cheap place here in town and pray that I can sustain myself on a small paycheck and the little financial assistance my husband can give me monthly? I simply can't stay with him just because it's safer anymore. My current job can never pay me enough to live all on my own.

   I'm so confused. Once my mother starts with her scare tactics and guilt trips, I'm second guessing myself. I'm scared but i need to make the right decision for me. But...what IS that?