I'm scared

You took one of the first steps by writing here. No matter how many or what the response is, you helped yourself by taking this first step.

I don't always have a lot of response to posts but the responses I do receive I value. I read again what I wrote or what others are talking about and respond to them. It helps build the much needed strength I need to push start into living life again.

Procrastination is a stinker so let's plant some flowers and watch them bloom. If one idea doesn't make it - keep on trying...

We can't give up. Take care and keep moving forward.

BlueB has the best advice I would read that a few times.

I personally don't have a problem with moving or going out of my comfort zone because I realized over the years - You take You with You everywhere you go...

I am proud of you for taking a giant leap of faith and moving out of state with your son. You were not alone when you did that. Your son was with you.

My response is short and sweet. Take this growth process one day at a time. Take the baby steps and your stride will become bigger and more confident as each day, week, month, year goes by.

Discover the person you want to be and what you want in your life. This is your opportunity to grow and do things you've always wanted. Just take it in little spurts at first. Little baby steps. You will get there. I have faith in that.

You Can Do It...
and your son will respect and value the fine example and love of his mom.

First, going outside one's comfort zone is a scary thing...there's no shame in that.  You are leaving the familiar for the unfamiliar, and that's enough to make anyone hesitate.

Do yourself a favor and write down your fears.  Once you do that, that's the first step to owning them.  The second is to face them, one at a time, but in all of them I can see that the biggest fear you seem to have is the fear of failure.  On that, realize something...you are human...you will make mistakes...you will inevitably fail at something.  That's not the important part...what is is getting back up when life knocks you down or throws you a curve ball...and trying again.

You're having a hard time believing in yourself...and you need to build your self-esteem and confidence.  Take baby steps.  Do things you know you can do and slowly take steps outside your comfort zone.  Don't hop into going back to school full time...take one class at a time...courses that interest you...one course a semester, if you have to.  If you fail it, it won't be the end of the world...a loss of money, perhaps, but not the end of the world...just learn from your mistakes and take it again...and again, until you pass it.  You have to believe in yourself before you can get past your fears.  Also, get help if you need it.  There's no law that says you have to do it alone.

It doesn't matter how many people believe in you and encourage you...if you don't believe in yourself, all the support in the world won't help.  It starts with you.  Start everyday by looking yourself in the mirror and say, "I can do this."  Keep repeating it to yourself until you believe it.  10 times...100 times...1000 times, if necessary.

I hope that helps you...good luck...believe in yourself, you CAN do this!!!