So, yesterday I actually felt a little better because my husband and i talked for a while. It is like I thrive off of hearing him and need him to survive. I shouldnt be happy because of what he has done (cheated) but I find myself needing to hear his voice. But then we started talking about our furniture and who is going to get what when he moves out (our house is in foreclosure). the discussion of the bed came up and I fell apart. I just cant get the image out of my head of him being with someone else in our bed! He wanted to avoid hearing me cry so said he would call back. I want him to face what he has done and hear how he has hurt me so it upset me that he was like that. Then, today, he said he is going to try to move by his uncle's which is 3 hrs away. It just really hit me. Everything seems to be becoming so official that it is over and it is killing me yet we both are saying we havent decided on divorce. He told me at first that separating was good for us in some ways to figure things out but now says it was not a good thing. We learned that all it did was put us apart even more. So now here we are with him having cheated on me and I dont know what to do or what to feel. He is not asking for us to be back living together. He is putting distance between us. Also, I am afraid how this is going to affect our baby boy. I know he wont see him often with that much distance. I am back to feeling like my world is crumbling and Im alone. I hate all of this confussion and pain.