Am I crazy?

Here is the break down:

Monday we were suppose to not talk.  I needed a break.  I sent a text at 7:30 AM (unfortunately it was necessary).  I figured that text would avoid any calls that day.  I was very nice even said " I miss you".  I know I am an asshole for that.

All day goes by and I feel horible.  To be expected I guess considering we have spoken every day for the last 10 years!  At 9:30, he texted me saying he needed to pick up his work van in the morning.  I say no problem and proceed to text that I went to therapy.  He asked how it went and said he was happy for me.

Tuesday morning- I call him because he is suppose to pick up the van.  I tell him yesterday was hard for me.  He agrees.  He tells me he doesnt need the van until after work but would still like to stop by.  We have a 2 year old so maybe he wanted to see her.  He didnt specify.  When he came we talked.  I was calm.  I told him this has been going on for a month and he said no.  I said the coldness set in over a month ago even though the actual leaving was only a week ago.  I made mention that no effort being made was an important issue I discussed ith the therapist as well as she thought it was good that he was so positive.

Moving on...

Later that day I sent him a text letting him know I was thinking about him.  He responded , "Thank you".  Wierd if you ask me.  I sent him a pic of the baby as well.  Later on he calls and starts saying he feels positive.  I said we need to make some type of effort even if we just start by writing down the things that each of us do that are hurtful to the other.  I stressed that maybe we dont realize that we do that to one another.  He agreed and said he would get the van at 5:30.  He did and stayed until 6:00.  i tried to do my own thing and let him do his.  he left and returned at 8:30.  He was hanging out with our daughter and it seemed like he didnt want to leave.  While getting clothes together he said I am not in the mood.  I assumed he meant packing and going to his friend's.  His body language told me he was going in slow motion.  We said good bye, he left.  Normal.  About 45 minutes later, he texted me good night which shocked the hell out of me.  He never did that.  I responded and I felt good.

Wednesday- He texts me at 10:30, telling me he was so busy at work and what were the baby and I up to for the day.  I said we were going to the shore and I he wished us a fun day. We said we would talk later.  Later I sent him a pic of her and he responded very cute and told me his day was bad.  I said nice things and so did he.  Here is the kicker.  The rest of the day goes by and I dont call him because he had a work meeting dinner to discuss the possible strike in his company. .  I waited for his call like a jerk.  At 11:00 pm I finally called.  He didnt answer.  He called back 15 minutes later saying he recently got to home and was outside smoking a cigarette.  I couldnt help it but I asked why didnt you call.  He gave me the lame excuse I thought you may have still been out or went to sleep already.  He said I thought you were going to call me.  That never stopped him before from calling to or texting to see if I was asleep just to say good night to his child.  We hung up and I called back 5 minutes later.  I was grasping at straws with a stupid question.  He didnt answer. I left a message.  Ten minutes later I text him.  Nothing for almost an hour.  Finally he texted me, sorry I fell asleep I have work early in the morning.  I asked him if something was wrong.  He said no he was just tired and had a bad day.  I said you couldnt find one minute today to call.  I dont remember what he answered , all I know is I cant help feel a knot in my stomach.  Could it be that he had a bad day, thought I wasnt home or sleeping when he got out of his long meeting which probably didnt even start until 7:00 PM?  I felt like he may have been with another woman, though I know for sure that there was an important strike meeting.  Am I reading into things?  Earlier in the day his texts were  so nice and I felt okay.  Could this just be a case of a busy day in which each of thought the other was going to call?  All I want to do is save our marriage - some days he seems like he does to and then others I feel scared.  I hate this.  I am sorry for this timeline but it helps me put things into perspective.  Thanks for reading!!!