drugs and drinking

First of all do you have a job? If you do then you need to start planning a way to get out, by saving some money to make a move, if this is really what you want to do, tell your family your plans, maybe they can help you with a little money to get started. My husbans started by smoking pot and then it led to cocain, and then arguing came. I had to leave because i wouldnt want my children to see me unhappy, and i am the only one that can control the environment that they are placed in, you can do it, think about the babies. and yourself. and also call the number above that was given to you.

i would also call the National Domestic Violence Hotline 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) asap. they have people trained to help. good luck!