Counseling

I was married to a man for 16yrs, I divorced him, It stayed like that for about a year,I remarried him,God i wanted it to work so bad, I guess we just didn't know how to put it all back together. It lasted not 2 months, We have 3 beautiful girls, Just went through the 2nd divorce.He wanted it. I guess two much had happened and with no conseling,no trust,No church! Just the two of us scared to death of being hurt again by each other,Looking back we didn't have a chance.So now i'm trying to step out on my own. The problem is, I'm not sure who i am anymore, I've been through so much. I have no confidence, low self-esteem,And how is a person to think postive when everything around them life is falling apart.The only thing that has kept me from committing suicide.Is God Almighty. I want to becareful with decison i make it doesn't only affect me, I have my girls, I feel like i'm on the right track I'm not as scared as i was. I'm taking it one day at a time. My pastor started counseling me and my children,I can see a difference alot has changed. Just would like to get advise from others who have been through it.I just want to be able to laugh again. see my kids happy, enjoy my life,I'm tired of being depressed all the time.