Feeling better, on my way to healing! 

To all of you that have sent prayers and well wished my way THANK YOU!  I finished my first day of therapy for the stroke I had three weeks back.  I feel physically better and mentally also.  I am beginning to realize that I can make this journey solo.  I have talked to him a couple times recently and didn't shed one tear.  That is a personal best for me.

Just when I thought there was no hope for me at all, I felt the strength well up inside me to give him a verbal "slap" because he deserved one.  He has been indifferent this entire separation and since my release from the hospital has gone right back to apathy. 

I have realized that my family and friends and the lord Jesus Christ will see me through the darkest nights.  I will not go through with my plan to end my life because I have also realized that I am not finished here.  I never leave things partially finished and I am not about to start now.

If my husband has some miraculous epiphany and realizes he wants to come back, he is going to find its not that easy.  He has so much to prove to me and my children that he just may want to rethink his position.

He expressed his love for me yet again and all I heard was "blah blah blah".  Maybe the stroke and made me turn a corner somehow.  Maybe I am realizing finally that I can do this on my own... One step at a time.

Keep the prayers coming.  I can use all I can get!!

Thanks agian for all of the support, keep it coming!

Deborah