College blues 

My 19 year old son left for college this morning. It was my turn to take him down to school and I was ready for the chance but my ex loaded up the truck and they took off together.  I had wanted to go.  Really bad but my son called me at the last minute to explain that they were already on the road and it wasn't necessary to take 2 vehicles.  I had already talked to the ex about going and I was willing to take the high road to be cordial and he was willing also.  It is a three and a half hour drive to the college. But it was my son who is having a hard time dealing with the aftermath of the divorce.  My oldest son stayed at college this summer and wouldn't come home at all.  Both boys are going to the same college. 

Has anyone else dealt with this type of situation?  I realize that the boys are trying to avoid conflict and hurt feelings but what about mine?  I know I should just suck it up and move forward.  I feel that I am always the one who is left out of things. The ex is a control freak and the boys just don't want to rock the boat. I have driven down several times to see them and I guess I will try again in a couple of weeks.

This just sucks!!