WTF? 

She didn't color her hair at her friends house the other night after my birthday dinner. She done it today when I got home and has been all sweet b/c she feels guilty about missing our counseling session today. She even asked if we could "do it" tonight if the kids were asleep when she got home. The bad thing is as much as I want it, I don't think I want to. It just doesn't feel right. If I give in then she will think all is good, on the other hand if I don't I don't know how long it will be before I get any again. She went to her other friends house to show her her new hair color. I have told her how much I don't like her leaving this late but she does it anyway. I almost hate that I am going to lay it all on the line thursday for our counseling or for the judge is she has strike three. I don't want to divorce, but I'm not going to be a doormat either. I wish there were a way to know exactly what to all the time, oh well so does everyone else.