Mistress had my husband's baby on Friday 

Still married. Running into every obstacle I can imagine in getting divorced and custody and financial issues settled.

Meanwhile he keeps bringing the pregnant mistress to court with him. She just had the baby on Friday. He has our 2-year-old son for the weekend. I'm sure he's on cloud 9 having fulfilled his fantasy of having his dream wife and family with her.

13 years with this man to be treated like trash. I worked since I got out of college to support his out of control spending to the point that i put off having children trying to reduce our debt as much as possible before incurring the additional expense of children.

Even his mistress had the nerve to tell me that my STBX and I shouldn't have talked about more children since we couldn't afford it. Yet since then we've lost every penny to attorney's, have lawsuits against us for not paying our loans back (he stopped paying his half of the bills when he moved out I don't make enough to cover it all myself.) It's just such nerve for a mistress to tell a wife that she's irresponsible for wanting children with her husband while at the same time pregnant with my husband's baby.

I feel like she stole my family and the children I"ve always wanted. I'm all alone this weekend watching tv non-stop as it's one of the only things that prevents me from thinking about what they are doing this weekend. The pain is indescribable. My husband did this to me. It's incomprehensible to me.

Whether he ends up delieriously happy for the rest of his life or miserable, nothing will ever make up for all the pain he's caused me, or the emotional scars he's given me. It hurts even more knowing that he believes I brought all of this on myself (because I'm not perfect) and I "made him do it". I want him to be miserable because he feels no remorse or shame. He tells everyone I'm crazy, that I dwell, that I should get a boyfriend/husband and move on already and that I need to see a therapist for my unjustified anger issues. All of his lack of responsibility, compassion, and cruelty while we are still married just fuels my anger. He didn't have the common courtesy or respect for me, his wife and mother of his son, to wait until we were divorced to have an affair much less have another baby. Know that 2 weeks before he said he wanted a divorce he asked me if I wanted a boy or girl next. It's like salt in the wound now realizing that he was having an affair while discussing having more children with me as I'm taking care of our son.

I just don't understand why people do what they do. i'll never really know if he was always this man or if he changed. All I know is that I am married to and had a child with the cruelest narcissist I have ever known.