I've been very busy the past few months....not to mention very sad. After a while it gets hard to climb out of darkness....it's so much easier to withdraw and suffer in silence where no one else can see or be affected.
I've got a status hearing at court on the 10th of June and I'm dreading it....this will be the first time I'll have been in personal contact with my husband in nearly two years. There seems to be another woman residing in my body - someone whose emotions are so out of whack that they're making me play the 'what if' game again....as in, ...'what if I just called and asked to speak to him?"
So far, I haven't totally lost my mind and picked up the telephone, but it's been a struggle. Today was a tough one for some reason, and I didn't have the energy or desire to venture far from my computer where I was safe and alone. But instead of surfing the net searching for anything at all I could find that pertained to my spouse, I searched for funny life stories....and this is what I found: http://www.fmylife.com/love
I laughed until I cried....instead of crying over things I cannot change. I hope it brings a smile to others who may also be having a bad day and need a little lift....