He can still make me cry 

For 11 months, I have been trying to get him to remove the rest of his belongs.  He was like a junk man.  I have transmissions, truck parts, barrels, all kinds of crap he saved.  His excuse is that he doesn't have the room for it.  Not my problem!  In Feb., I gave him until May 2.  On May 2, my son brought home a bunch of guys from college and they cleaned out a storage building.  They even put his things aside and tarped it up.  I called him and told him his things were ready to go.  He said that he couldn't because his truck broke down during 'their' move.  He moved again ( 3rd time in 11 months).  News to me and again, not my problem.  I am not his personal storage facility.  But, trying to be fair, I said ok, I'll give you another month.  The conversation  ended amicably.  THEN......'The Beast's' ex-drug dealer gives me a visit and tells me a load of crap about them that dated 7 months before he left. A time when he kept telling me he still loved me and wanted to stay married.  I was extremely upset, called him and told him what was told to me.  I gave him 2 weeks.  He said he would come up to get his things.

That's this weekend.  I called him tonight and asked again.  Again, I got a song and dance about his truck.  They have NO friends they can ask to borrow a truck from....not surprising.  I did raise my voice a couple of times because I was frustrated. I apologized.  HE began to scream at me over the phone.  I was so flabergasted that I just listened to him and tried to talk.  He's screaming at me 'What the fuck do you want from me?!?  I left you the house, the car, the garage.  I packed my shit and got the fuck away !"  I was in shock.  He's treating me like I'm the one who had the affair!  He then told me to 'quit harassing him and leave him the fuck alone' .......click!

That's when the tears started.....quietly.  I let him continually hurt me.  My oldest son asked me what happened.  I told him. ......I've never seen him so mad.  His father hasn't really talked to him since he left.  My son called his dad, used the same language his dad uses and told him that he was sick of the way he was treating his mother....that he had never make me cry again.  His dad  CALLED HIM OUT!!!  Told him to 'bring it'!  WTF!!!!   He then hung up on our son.  I couldn't believe it.  Right at that moment, my youngest son walked in.  T. told his brother what happened.  C. called his dad (who by this time isn't answering his phone).  C. left a voice message and basically said the same thing T. had said.  C. said 'No one makes my mother cry!" While I was touched the boys stood up for me, I know their relationship with their dad is now gone.  I feel sad and guilty.  I never told them to do that.  They both have just seen the way their dad has treated me for the last 19 years.  My youngest is taking this the hardest.  He still loves his dad.

 I really don't have any questions....I just needed to vent.  I can't, for the life of me, figure out what I did to make my stbx hate me so much.  Like I said, he is acting like I did him wrong!  I just don't get it.  I'm tired of feeling hurt and I'm tired of crying.  I've tried to forgive him so I can move on.  It's just not happening.