What do I do??? 

Well, here goes nothing.  I am writing my first blog and it happens to be about my life and the downward spiral that it is on.  I have been married for almost nine years to what I thought was the most amazing woman.  We were perfect together until about 3 years ago.  She had been begging me to start a family for 6 months and I finally gave in.  Within a few weeks she was pregnant.  WOW wasn't expecting things to progress that quickly.  I had no clue as to what to expect or what to do our how this would change my life forever.  Let me start by saying that my child is my world.  I will never let anything or anyone harm them and I will do anything to make their life wonderful.  Now back to my story.  My wife had set so many expectations about what things were going to be like and how great everything would be but failed to inform me of them.  This could have been very useful.  Well a few months later things started to hit the fan.  I could do nothing right and everyone was out to get her for not being a good mom.  We had only been parents for a few months and we were both learning.  I did the best that I knew how or was told how but it never was enough.  I would put a bottle in the wrong place or I didn't do things in just the right way.  After awhile I just stopped trying because I was always being told I did it wrong but she would never show me how to do it right.  Just recently I have been able to fold towels correctly.  8 years and now she lets me fold the towels.  Well to shorten the story a bit.  My wife has done very well in her career and advanced quickly.  She is in a position where she has the ability to hire people she feels are a good fit.  Well, one of the doctors she knew started to see an opening and jumped at the chance to get to know her.  From what I have found out and from what she has told me is that she hired him at the same time she started see him.  It took me about 4 months to find out that she was cheating but at that point there was no stopping her.  She had done more with him in that short of time then I have with her in years.  She was head over heals in love with him and she told me this to my face.  He had money, he was a doctor, and he had the prestige that went along with it.  She may not have everything but she wants everyone to think that she does.  Well I found out in April and confronted her about it and she said she would end it.  I later found out in July that she lied and never quit seeing him.  She still works with him and sees him almost daily... Oh gotta run I hear her waking up.  Say a prayer for me that I will survive and that things will be ok.  I will finish the story later.