It is possible to be happy again!!! 

Wow, it has been a really long time since I have blogged. . I truly am in a better state than I was just a few short months ago. I swear just a few short weeks ago, the fog that hung over me was lifted. Time truly does heal all. I  think what has helped me are my discussions with god and being honest with myself.  I think truly being honest with yourself, as much as it can hurt, about your entire situation is the first BIGGEST step in healing. I have accepted my faults in our breakup, I have forgiven myself and am learning from them. In  addition, I have realized the faults within my ex, something that love will blind you to. This has helped me begin to "get over him" as some would call it. But honestly, giving myself some space from him and allowing myself to truly see him for what he is, has helped me see what I truly want.

For the first time I can honestly say I am not sure who my ex is. I would like to say that he is a loving, caring person deep down but his actions a lot of the time say otherwise. I think he changes who he is so much that even he doesn't truly know who he is or what he wants.  Yet still, I forgive him. I pray for him every day. I truly wish him the best and all the happiness in the world and I know he deserves it too!

 With this newfound realization, I am happy, I feel content, and no longer am consumed by the anger/sadness. So much so that I am no longer anygry with his new GF either!! And I thought that would never be the case. Don't get me wrong I still have a few pangs here and there, but I am finding that the more happier I become, the more I no longer care about them, the more I no longer fight with my ex, or get angry at the little things. He and her just no longer affect me the way they used too and if feels great! Again, time heals!  

I am so grateful for what I have right now, it feels so good to be happy again. I love myself unconditionally now and am seeing life differently too! I know I still have a long way to go but so far I feel that I am making it through this tunnel!!!!!!!!!!