Need advice- Am I doing the right thing? 

I am not going to get into the whole history since most of you have some knowledge of it by  now and it's a loooong story....

In a nutshell: He is a serial cheater (I don't think it gets much more serial then this), he has hit me or injured me a couple times (not often, maybe once a year), he is VERY emotional abusive and just an extremely negative force in the home. He doesn't appreciate anything I do for him and I found myself disgusted with his very presence near the end. He has been out for almost two months now.

However, he comes over every other day while Im at work to take the kid to school, watch her until I get home, and do some laundry and stuff. 75% of the time, he ends up staying the night. Mainly because he knows exactly how to guilt me into it. Not really because I want him to.

So, after Valentines Day and the bloody nose incident....we don't talk for about a week (well, he tries repeatedly and I ignore). He comes by to see our daughter again and when I come home to relieve him...he has birthday gifts for me. I set of pots and pans (I have been needing these for a bit) and the book based off the movie "Fireproof". I read the back of the book and see the first sentence where it says "to teach you how to unconditionally love your spouse".

I become extremely angry. I tell him that this book is bullshit. I unconditionally loved him for 8 plus years and have forgiven his infidelities numerous times. I bitch and gripe while he stands there surprised that this "gift" didn't cause me to run back into his arms. He informs me (in a very "butthurt" kinda way) that he bought himself a copy too.

I take a moment to relax and come back to apologize. I explained to him why I got offended by the book and explained that I was sorry I flipped out in such an "uncalled for" way.

He tells me that he got a babysitter for the night and would like to have me accompany him to the local Irish pub to meet with his firefighting crew who are all Irish as well. (B is not Irish, but I am very proudly an Irish woman).

I agree. I need a night out. We go and I admittedly had a blast. Of course, we did our normal thing of walking in together, having some drinks and then talking to other random strangers and coming out with friends (we rarely talk or spend time together even when we were totally together). Of course, oddly these firefighters start to swarm me after a few Guinness' asking me to reconsider the divorce, B loves me so much and is so scared to lose me. They tell me that if I'm patient, he will be a good husband to me. That they were shitty husbands too, in their youth and their wives stuck through the crap and now they are rewarded with good and devoted husbands! I just got angry about that too though. Rewarded?! There's a point when the left over scars are too much for a woman, no matter how strong, to bear.

I can see that he is trying very hard to win me back over. I feel bad that he is putting forth so much effort when I feel it is all pointless....BUT, I just am too paranoid now. I know that if I get back with him he will just go back to his old ways after about a month. He can't hold onto this for long.

He is talking about counseling, anger management classes, joining a church together, buying a house together specifically for Catholic couples, he is spending every free moment with our daugther (something he did not do at all before), he is volunteering to read books to her class for Dr. Seuss' birthday, he takes her to school functions and even seems more aware of what's going on in her life than I do!

I came home the other day to relieve him and the house was completely spotless, he had even hung some curtains I hadn't gotten to yet, he had bought my favorite wine and told me to relax...that I deserve it.

He really can't work any harder than he is right now. But I just don't feel it anymore. I think it's all very insincere and it almost disgusts me instead of making me reconsider the divorce.

I just wish he'd move on and let me go. This isn't doing anything but making it harder on me.

Am I still making the right decision? I don't trust him, I don't respect him, I am miserable with him and don't feel like I am in love with him anymore. I feel hope and happiness when I think that I just might be on the way to meeting my "special someone" and building a good and healthy life together. I feel sad when I think of getting back with B and losing my possible future "special someone".....

What do I do? Give me brutal advice and I'm at the point where I don't trust myself and will probably follow the advice to the "T"...so be careful with the advice.