another weekend...another drinking night 

I am learning a lot of things now...
- french
- training for marathon
- planning to take CPR
- swimming (on my own)

there are other stuffs I am planning to learn but unsure yet because they cost money....and back to my spending money odd feeling.
- guitar
- hip hop
- drawing
- scuba diving

I don't know what single people do..I have married for too long..always thought I had a Saturday night date yes....yes, a date..no longer..Do I venture out and live for the night..no..why?? can't say..I am at the starting gate..like you..I rent a movie or spend times with my children...they are  are 19 & 22 and away at college..so here I sit on line...cheer up..don't drink..not a problem solver..time is.. This I feel is the the sad time for those of us who lives have been changed by not our choices...but, life we will live..stay strong..time changes and so will we ..try something knew..how about learning to play a guitar..why, not??

Well you don't have to go to bar how about a movie.  I have gone to the movies on my own and its not that bad!  Have you thought about joining a group.  I thought it was stupid but i found a group at www.meetup.com.  Its a group of women who go out weekly.  Now there are lots of groups for different purposes and reasons so if you have an interest there might be a group for you!  Its worth trying out if you don't like it you don't go again.

I can't go to bars alone...with friends maybe. but can't do it alone. and never can I go try picking up girls in bars. I feel disgusted when I see guys hitting on girls in bar. especially ugly looking guys.

They do exactly what you are doing.  Sometimes they go out sometimes they stay home.  Lots of times I am finding out they go to bars and hang out then go home alone sometimes not alone.  Its saturday night and I exhausted my self today doing things around the house am I upset because I am not going out.  No because I never used to go out on Saturdays anyways.  Now if I am still not going out on Saturdays in another month I might get upset. Ha ha. 

I am going to get in a bath and read a good book.  Then I might watch a movie I haven't decided.