mixed feeling about weekends 

So another note...another weekend she is going away. I don't know how I feel seeing these notes anymore. On one hand there is sadness of course. I know she isn't just going away on the weekend for fun with the OM but she is doing this for her depression yet he is there with her. Since I told her I am leaving and not going to wait, she has been away almost every weekend now...from previously once ever two weeks. This group...I wonder, aren't other people normal. Can you really take this shit every week. I've done some research. There isn't any addiction but you're still going to increase your chance of having schizophrenia. I can understand because she is having pain but the folks that are organizing this, how can they do it every week!!! Once a month or once every other week...geez. Well it's her life.

 

So I am upset because he is going to be with her over the weekend. Yet, on the other hand. I think I do enjoy having the house by myself. It is better...much better spending the time at my mom's house being stress out. I can relax and do whatever I want. 

 

I should spend this weekend continue cleaning the place up and sorting out our finance even though I am not rushing to get everything settled.