He is meeting my parents. *Gulp* 

My boyfriend has met my Mom twice now briefly. My Dad will be coming up this time as well and well, Thursday night, my boyfriend and his Mom will be coming over to have dinner while my parents are here. I am a little nervous about it. I am not even sure why. I am 38 years old for another month, 39 is approaching faster than I want to admit, lol....I don't need my parents approval but I find I feel like a kid again wanting to have it.

I want my boyfriend to like my parents and I want my parents to like my boyfriend. My ex MIL and FIL like my boyfriend. Why am I nervous then? We have been seeing each other for 8 months. Friday night, we will all be going to my son's football game. He got pulled up from JV for the Varsity's playoffs. His first playoff game was last week and he didn't even play. He might play the entire game as a JV player but hitting varsity, he is probably considered 3rd string. So, they will see each other Thursday night and Friday night. They will see each other for a bit on Saturday too. My pining ceremony is Saturday even though I have been a SFC for over a month now, I waited to be pinned so my parents could be here. On Saturday, my parents will be there, my boyfriend will be there, my kids will be there and my ex MIL and FIL will be there.

I suppose that sounds kind of Jerry Springerish but I wanted to share my day with those important to me and they are all important to me. I refuse to have to choose. My inlaws have been family to me for 18 years and I am not going to exclude them from my life because I am not married to their son anymore. I am not going to hide away anyone that I care for. I am not ashamed of the choices I have made. I am thankful my boyfriend gets the fact that I fully intend to continue to keep the family I have. There must be some discomfort for him but he knows it is important to me and he makes the effort for me. I sincerely appreciate that. I don't want to live like I have two separate lives. I don't. I have several people that I love that I hope will eventually love each other as well.

Maybe that is a naive thought but I fully believe that you not only have the family you are born into but you can choose family as well. I believe that if I am strong enough in my convictions to hold my family together, I can. At least I hope I can. I do wonder what my boyfriend thinks about meeting my parents. I may have to ask him about it. Wish me luck for this coming weekend. I know that I am hoping that it goes very well and definitely hoping for smoothly.