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The end. 

Today is one of those days again...I look at my wife and wish I could just hold her like I used to and her actually liking it....but I can't. She is cold, indifferent. I look at her and think to myself damn she is beautiful...I wanna give her a kiss on her lips like I used to and her actually returning my kiss. I look at her neckline and and want to kiss it and whisper I love you in her ear like I used to and have her tell me the same but it's all gone. She has turned away from me and seems to be pushing me away more and more.

 

I want to leave but I am afraid...I will miss my children. I will miss them singing in the car and laughing loudly at funny things. I will miss their little hugs, their little kisses and their I love yous in their little voices.

 

I am afraid that my wife will replace me (if she hasn't already) and love another man (if she doesn't already).

 

I want to move to where my family, my support system is.

 

I don't have a family right now...I am the outcast.

 

I think the longer I stay around here, the more destructive I will become to myself. The pain is here everyday, I can't seem to heal. Every time the wounds seem to scab over, someone is here to tear it open again.

 

I am tired....I want to go to sleep. I don't want to hurt anymore...this might just be the ugly end of what I cherished for so long...

by Jojo13  17 Posts 

Posted on 11/3/2009 7:48 AM
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Hi JoJo -

So sad to read your hurt and pain.  Hang on.  We are all here for you.

Best -
Lisa
by Lisa Cannon   
Posted on 11/3/2009 4:30 PM
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I too am in you shoes. But he is the one that wants this divorce. I keep praying that he will change his mind, and want to work on our marriage. And I think my prayers will not be answered. I believe he has moved on. We would of been married 24 years this past June. I have been with him most of my adult life, also. I am so sorry that you are going thru this. My prayers are with you.
by Mama85   9 Posts
Posted on 11/3/2009 10:26 AM
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This also sounds like my situation.  I still love her so much and she has just completely slammed the door shut.  I dn't knw how after 2 great (at least I thought they were) years she can just turn it off like that.  I think that she just doesn't want to feel any guilt or remorse for what she is doing to me or our family.  I just want to hug her and hold her and love her like we used to.  But....nothing.  Like you, my family live out of state, so I really have no one but my kids....she has her new boyfriend to hold her and love her.
by MCRhino   1 Post
Posted on 11/3/2009 8:35 AM
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Wow, I could have written this myself. I still live with my wife the one  still care for, still am attracted to and still want to work things out with. The fact is she, like your wife, seems to have none of those feelings not a shred. I have been with this woman for 16 years, we have spent most of our adult lives together (since 20 yrs old) in my case I just ran out of chances, always made the changes that she needed me to make then reverted back to old ways. Nothing serious like abuse just emotional abandonment. So I lay in the bed I made hoping for one more shot that I probably dont deserve. She wants to leave so bad but I dont want to see her broke, on welfare, or shit on by other men who so often use women and throw them away. Keep letting the bs out jojo I, like many others in here am right with you. be well bro
by Dadof3boys   55 Posts
Posted on 11/3/2009 8:27 AM
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