The future 

 A few weeks ago a friend of mine from military school came to stay the weekend. Many of you don't know this but due to my rebellious behavior as a teen my parents put me in military school to attempt to straighten me out. It didn't work..lol...BUT

  After all that in my young adult years, I felt as though I wanted to help teens.I had no clue what I wanted to do- but had a desire to help in some way..some how.  I  told my first husband this, guess it would have about 27 years ago , that I wanted to do this. He laughed and made fun- so I didn't pursue it.  

 Many memories were brought up when my friend  and I were at the school and when we got back to my house. Good and bad..I asked  her the Sunday before she left..can you tell I have a heart for kids ? She said ...duh....you have a revolving door on your house for teenagers! ...Of course I can tell! (She probably met 15 or more during the short time she was here) . 

 While we were visiting the school a  man stopped us as we were walking through the halls . He saw our name tags...and asked if we went to school there. When we said yes, he started asking questions. I don't know what came over me..but I told him point blank how the school was. He said- you are not making me very happy. I told him I am sorry! But you asked and I won't lie! He said his son was in 8th grade there and hated it.  I asked why did you put your son in this school? He was stunned. I looked at Steph and asked him again..He answered "because he was acting up and needed some discipline! ' I actually told him..well..your son is here for the same reason as probably 75-85% of the other kids here. You have taken your son and thrown him into a pot of other kids in the same boat- and that is who is influencing him now! He said you are ruining my day. I again said I am so sorry! I have to be honest! YOUR son needs YOU! He told me he and his wife are divorced, and he lives with her. I said- that is NO excuse! Your son needs YOU! He needs you to love him and accept him! He shook his head and walked off. 

 Well, I can't get it out of my head..the stupid things parents  do. When kids only want us to love them..and accept them..and support them..provide stability! And we neglect..expect them to raise themselves..put the task onto others instead of taking responsibility for bringing them into the world! It makes me SO angry when parents don't do what they are supposed to do! Then some wonder why our world is in the state it is in!

   I was doing an inspection today for a guy who works in the detention center near me. I asked him some questions about his work and the availability of jobs.  Jumped on my soap box AGAIN...lol..( I really don't know wth has come over me!I am usually not this bold!) He told me stories of neglect and abuse..things that he sees..and again it is rolling through my head!

  I am not sure what it will be..but there is a seed in my heart that I want to help the kids. I want to be a rock in their lives where there is none. My youngest will graduate in 2 years. This time may be spent taking some classes and gearing up for what is really in my heart to do and has been a LONG time..Not sure what I will do - or where I will be but I really think it is what I am supposed to be doing with my life.

 Funny thing- spaz told me a long time ago that maybe I should get into counseling...and maybe our dear wise friend spaz hit the nail on the head yet AGAIN!