I'm truly struggling 

Here's the simple version...to the best of my knowledge...We've struggled for 2 1/2 years. I thought it was over, but could never totally give up hope. Every time I saw him, I thought that something would click. I never stopped loving him. Just something seemed missing. I thought it was newness wearing off, but he was still so head over heels ... Read MoreI thought something must be wrong with me. We had some intimacy issues, my fault, not consciously. I basically thought we couldn't be saved, although that hope was still there, and giving up totally was unthinkable. I fell apart. Yet I didn't go home when he asked out of fear of failing. So....we continued like this since Feb. We'd both have days we said it was over, and days we loved each other and looked at the good. In Sept on a bad day I went to get info and I thought to begin divorce. I couldn't even write our names down without crying. I knew I didn't want this, but when he asked me to come home, I still froze. That was the last time he wanted to ask me. I guess he had been seeing someone and I was getting one last chance to stop that from moving forward and I failed. I had to get the rest of my stuff out, and hers was coming in. I knew it was a long time coming, but it hurt like hell, because I wanted to fix things. I just didn't want to say yes and fail. He said he still loves me and will always want to be with me. He needs time, as they live in OUR house together. I'm not sure if I'm being a fool by hoping he thinks about us, our marriage and our family, or if it's a chance to save us. I'm struggling. How 3 days can break us, I don't know. 3 days before I said I'd do anything to save us, he had said the same to me. It just doesn't all add up, and I'm having trouble wrapping my brain around it.