THE AWAKENING! 

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Ok, now back to reality....

 The ex is now having the awakening. A year and a half later.

He's calling, crying, moaning about how hard his life is now.  Boo hoo.

Financial problems, no motivation to work, bankruptcy blah, blah, blah.

Ya know what....Its still all about him. Yep, just him!

Although it really hurts me to hear him, I feel this pulling sensation to

wrap my arms around him and tell him its going to be ok.  I truly still

love him, miss him, want him and my family back together.

I really believe the only reason he's in such agony is because his

pathetic girlfriend/mistress/bitch can't stand him anymore either.  Gee,

what a surprise?  He never had a relationship lasting more than a

year before me.  14 years I gave this man, took his abuse, cared for

him, ran our business, cleaned the house etc, etc, etc.....

 I really feel bad for my cheating, lying, abusive ex.  Too bad he's so

stupid he can't even grovel well. 

 And what effect is this going to have on our 10 yr old son?  I told him

he better not behave like this in front of him.  I could have him hauled

off by the guys in the white coats if necessary.  He has mentioned the

S word.  But he's all talk, his bandaid is no longer available and now

after all this time, HE'S FINALLY FEELING IT!!!! Yeah, that's really what

it is.  Its finally caught up to him.  All this time I've been alone and

dealing with the immense pain and I'm feeling somewhat better.  He's

just starting to deal with it.  Now he's the pathetic one!

What do I do, hang up on him?  Tell him to move on?  Comfort him?

I'm confused............