Little things Hit You! 

My son is finally cleaning his room!  Yeah!  I've only been telling (and nagging) him to do it for the past 6 months!

First let me tell you that I live in a relatively small modular.  No basement, no attic= No storage!  I have had to store things in the kid's closets.  Well, he is cleaning out his closet and says that he found something of mine.

He brings out a box and I knew the minute I saw it what it was......the cake topper from our wedding cake.  When I looked inside, there was also a pack of napkins with our names on it.....Angielou and A**hole, February 10, 1990.  (Well, not really, but you get the idea!)

He said he'd throw it away for me.  I just kept looking at it and said no, I'd do it later.  I looked at it some more.  Thinking of that day, so many years ago.  I was so happy and in love.  HE was so happy and in love.  I was 3 months pregnant and we had been together for 5 years already.  We were looking forward to the birth of our child and life together.

Looking back now, it seems like 2 totally different people.  I haven't told too many people, but I almost left him the end of the first year of marriage.  I thought he had an affair....sometimes I still do, though he vehemently denies it still!  Life was hard even then....he was never home, I was alone with a baby a state away from my family, I saw him maybe 2 weekends a month (he was an over the road truck driver)

I have given him my whole life...did everything for him but chew his food and wipe his a** and fully expected to have to do that for him,too when he was elderly! 

I think I am going to throw away the  cake topper and napkins.  If I hold on to them, I won't be able to move ahead.  I have taken all of his pictures down and rearranged everything.....I can't hold on to one more thing!

What would all of you do..... what will you do when you run into something like this?  I've saved it for 18 years.....