So we’re in the ‘Silent Treatment’ stage  

  I confronted him about some chick and he lied! Wow, big surprise. This time though, I had ‘HAD it up to HERE!’ I mean I always have had it up to ‘There’ but ‘HERE’ was where I needed to be in order to see right through him. I even had evidence and he played me like I was crazy and started talking about having stalkers… are you serious! It was like that song by Shaggy “It wasn’t me”. 

At this point I was finally disgusted and I’m soo thankful to God for that feeling, ya know!?! This whole ordeal has already been difficult but I needed a sign and God sent it.  He tried to leave “to get something to eat’ because I was giving him hell but I told him (knife and meat in hand) ‘Sit your Ass down cause I’m cooking this damn chicken!” And he did. And was crazy enough to trust it and eat it!  

Now, we’ve entered ‘The Silent Zone’ and I personally don’t care what comes out his mouth because I can’t believe it.    Why is this soo huge for me?  Unlike most stories where the husband or wife becomes a total A-Hole after (in some cases before) being told ‘Its Over’ this man continues to treat me with love and adoration like I never said anything. He assured me that it’s about what I want and need and he’ll continue to provide as long as I need it if a divorce will make me happy… I was pissed he didn’t put up more of a fight but since this wasn’t the first time I went to file (the first being in Feb. and he convinced me to stay) I figured he felt he could win me back again.  I was interested in how he planned on doing that this time but now I’m not.  

He has always paraded me around, told me I was beautiful and showered me with gifts and basically waited on me hand and foot. I was treated as some sort of a prize/trophy wife… and that shit is for the birds. I’ve NEVER been materialistic and I think that’s why he liked me in the first place. I didn’t (and still don’t) want anything from him, just what was promised in those vows is that too much to ask for in a marriage? I think not.    

So now what? He comes home and says ‘hello’ and I nod. We move about uncomfortably careful not to touch, look or get in each others way.  I don’t operate like this, it’s childish to me but I seriously have nothing to say to him. He came home to give me a shirt he got for me (prizes for a winner…YaY?) and went to his next job. I’m not impressed and never was in the past, at least then I would’ve convinced myself it was a sincere gesture. He’s not a man of many words so I always watch his actions and when someone’s action (towards you) is loving but then in the dark they’re another person, it gets very confusing because you want to believe they are only the person they show YOU.  He is very secretive and discreet he’d die if anyone-except me obviously- close to him knew about his infidelity. So what now? What do I say when this ‘Decepticon” decides to speak to me? I wish I could Transform his ass into a faithful husband.