Feeling Alone in a Marriage 

Things are so complicated, I just need someone to help who is maybe married and/or feeling this way.

I have been married for four years now. When we first got married things were nice. We had a baby shortly after getting married because of doctor recommendations due to my own complications, and we were so happy.

Into the second half of marriage, my husband didn't get up with our son, and he didn't want to do anything with us. I tried to get him to go outside, to the pool, anything. But he would make up excusses or barry himself in his video games. He played them so much, I went to bed alone most nights. When I started to do things on my own, he got upset that I was never home. So I would stay home and watch him play, even tried playing with him, but the baby needed someone to take care of him, and so I did, and quit playing the game with my husband. Eventually I got so used to doing it on my own, I confronted my husband with my feelings. He made some changes, but slipped back into his routine. NOW, we are in counceling and I am afraid that wont work, and he will return to his routine. We are doing somethings together, but I still hurt, and had gotten so used to doing things on my own that now I don't see a point in being married. I was married and felt so alone, and now I am mad that he thinks I can just TRY again. I don't know. I am just being stupid, and I don't know if I love him, or what love is anymore. My heart felt broken and now I can't pick up my pieces now that he is ready to work on things. Now his depression has turned on me and I can't shake it. I feel dizzy and sick with emotions, and most days I want to leave. What can I do? Please help.