Tomorrow ends my ten year marriage 

December 17th will end my ten year marriage. I've spent the past several months trying to cope with this reality and pain.  I've sought advice from wherever I could get it.  I've never hurt so bad in my life.  It's like a close family member has died & I've been grieving.  While I've been grieving, he registered with an online dating service & had a serendipity experience by meeting the one he was meant to be with (his words, not mine).

The roller coaster of emotions, the bucket of tears and a couple nights sleeping on the bathroom floor have left scars but also an inner strength that I didn't know I had.  I survived.  I'm now a believer of the saying: That does not kill you will make you stronger. 

My self-esteem suffered the most, dispite the fact that I work in middle management & have mastered the "poker face" when I'm at work. At night & weekends I fell a part. I felt discarded...used up....replaced with a newer model.

Today, I realize that I let his actions dictate my responses.  I gave him that power over me and tomorrow, I will take it back.  I will hold my head up when I walk in that court room because I know in my heart that he is throwing away one hell of a woman. 

Thanks for letting me share.