So I got a really cheap guitar to mess with. something to get my mind off of everything and I can also watch my son while messing with it. If there is anything I can suggest to people going through hard times its pick up a hobby or even an instrument. Something that can allow you to get alot of energy out there and express yourself. I don't really know how to play all that well but it feels great to just jam on this thing and put some energy into it. I'm too embarrassed to sing here but I think I might just anyway ;)
One thing that I'm dealing with at this moment is my attraction to my soon to be ex wife. I find her extremely beautiful and sexy and when I have to see her or be around her I want to pounce lol. I know this is something I have to just stop thinking about but damnit my heart just races around her. I'm hoping that these feelings will go away soon. I hate them.
My son was high strung yesterday lol. off the walls and running everywhere! I couldn't get him to sleep even with the TV off. Eventually he fell asleep and I did too but wow how do I get a kid to calm down when he is so insanely hyper?? lol he exhausted me!
well my son went to church with his mom and I'm just fiddling with the guitar and watching tv. hope you have a good day. I'm trying to.