Well, the results are in and the score is me 0 and MS 1. My family doctor has been saying this for years but the tests that they ran just never came up with the diagnosis because my neurologist wasn't looking for MS. He was trying to figure out each symptom as it came and along the way the discovered the brain aneurysm and a few other things. When my balance became a real issue these last few months my family doctor really started to lean toward the MS. He worked together with my neurologist and the tests have come back positive for MS. I am okay with it, not that I am happy that I have it, but now all the symptoms all this time finally make sense. I now know what I am fighting and the doctors can proceed with a plan for treatment. I really thought that I would be more upset about it but I had an idea for a while and have been preparing myself. I'm not going to let it get me down because I know there are people out there in much worse shape than I am. I can't let myself focus on the negative because I need to keep my strength for more important things like kicking my stbx's ass at the upcoming support hearing. I have found that if I take my depression and turn it into a different emotion than I am able to deal with things better.So I'll turn it into anger against my stbx.God didn't let pass on the other month when I so selfishly ate the bottle of pills. So I think he wants me to stay around for a little longer. And as I said to my doctor today. I have been living with the MS for a while now. It's not like I was just struck down with it all of a sudden. You just gave it a name today.