Another Try?  

Time went by, but it felt like it had gone on forever.
 
Things were starting to improve, or so I thought. I was carrying on with real life and he was trying to make things go back the way they were. I wanted to be a family again, but I was scared.

Well, I just didn't want to break up AGAIN, because we had already done that. I still had a teen at home, and we also had our daughter with us and we were just living together. Sure, he had been my husband for many years and we were divorced, but we were back together again. Why couldn't this work?
 
I wanted it so desperately. So, one day, I thought that maybe since things had calmed down, we could try it again. I was very unsure about all of this because of the infidelity but I figured that since I had been through counseling, I would be a stronger person. I was stronger, but I was also weary of all that we had been through.